Oh what a year this has been! I remember last New Year’s Eve wishing for a better year, as I do every year, but I was in no way prepared for what 2013 would bring my family and I.
Before reading further please note that even though I had so much go on I in know that there are those in worse situations than I. And my thoughts and prayers are with all those who have struggled this year.
My year started off pretty good, still happy to have moved back home and getting out and enjoying everything Orlando has to offer, friends, family and fun. In April, we were preparing for my husbands upcoming 44th birthday and our 17 years together anniversary and all seemed to be going really well. Rob had been going to the doctors every year for PSA (prostate) tests as he had had some issues with his levels in the past. He had a biopsy done a few days before we headed out to have a weekend escape trying to put things out of our minds to focus on us. We had fun and had also convinced ourselves that all would be well. The day after we came home our world crumbled.
You can read about our journey at the following:
- The Three Words That Changed My Life
- The Process Of Removing Prostate Cancer From Our Lives
- Cancer Is Gone, But Never Really Leaves
What I learned about this process was eye opening. My husband, who is always my strong hero, was stronger almost to the point where he gave out the aura that nothing was wrong. But I already knew that. What shocked me was my strength. Sure I was breaking down inside but I never let him see that, I wanted to be strong for him, I wanted him to lean on me for once, I wanted to take care of him. I came though in ways I never thought I was capable of and for that I am proud of myself.
As far as my kids are concerned this past year has been good for them, bad for us being parents. My youngest has dealt with a few snotty kids at school in first grade. I hope this coming year in school is better for her. My oldest daughter loves learning, is a great student and has made a ton of friends. However this year, a few weeks ago, something happened at her school that I swore would make me take her out if it ever happened. There was a shooting, in her vicinity and it scared the daylights out of me. You can read about that here: Mom, I Am Ok But…
And of course it wouldn’t be a crazy year without a good extended family fallout which has left me without words, happy, sad, disappointed and so much more. But in the end it is what it is and we will pick up and move on.
So as this year closes, and we leave all the hurt, shock and disease behind, I am looking at the 2014 door opening and hope for a year of happiness, love and laughter for my family.
From my family to yours, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!! We wish you a year full of love and laughter, two of the best medicines in the world! Please be safe tonight!!!!!
